My Life is slowly becoming a full-fledged musical. I’ve already owned up to the fact that I am Bobby from Company. I’m also aware I think a lot like the Baker’s Wife from Into the Woods (do I see a Sondheim theme here?). What happened to me this weekend really kind of scared me into thinking that any day my life could complete turn into a musical, with people bursting into song all around me. When that happens it will be either the best day of my life or the day I check into Bellevue. To paraphrase The Drowsy Chaperone “Anyone who breaks out into song in real life is just hopelessly deranged”. That was a long opening paragraph to get what I really wanted to talk about my own “dream ballet”. As you probably know I’m not a fan of the “dream ballet” that occurs in Oklahoma. Well after seeing it three time in the past two weeks it apparently have taken over my subconscious.
***Let me preface this explanation of my own “dream ballet” by saying that the names of the people in the dream have been changed to protect the innocent ( and because the two people who read my blog know one if not both of the people in the dream) ***
So went away this weekend and like I always do on long trips I fell a sleep. Luckily I don’t drive because that could have spelled disaster for those in the car. Now this is the first of what I can only assume will be the recurring “marriage dreams”. I’ve had all the regular dreams. I don’t know if this makes any sense, but work with me. “Marriage dreams” are dreams in which your fears about marriage or relationship become very clear. Its ridiculous really because I’m not in a relationship nor am I getting married any time soon. Up until this point I haven’t had any as vivid as this one. Anyway this marriage dream falls directly into the “dream ballet” category because it mirrored the dream that Laurey has in Oklahoma. I’m not sure if it actually did but, it reminded me a great deal of it anyway. So here it is:
I’m was standing at an alter and down the aisle walks my bride. I think to myself “wow, she’s beautiful even more beautiful than I ever remember”. She gets to me and I remove her veil which has been hiding her face this entire time. I look at her and she is Jane 1 ( I’ll number them to make it easier). Jane 1 is an attractive friend of mine who I have never had an interest in marrying and never will (no offense to her). I realize it is her and start to freak out and start telling everyone in the church that there has been a mistake. I begin to run out of the church when two people who I would never invite to my wedding (they are just acquaintances) tackle me and tell me I have to marry Jane 1. They drag me back to the alter and I tell Jane 1 I can’t marry her. She doesn’t understand why and tells the priest to start. He begins to marry us and I find that I cannot move. I am stuck there. She says, “oh, well”. Finally at the top of my lungs I yell, “ I can’t marry you. I don’t want to spend the rest of my life with you. I can’t spend my life with you. I would much rather marry (as I scan the crowd I see Jane 2) Jane 2!”. Jane 2 stands up and runs over to me. I explain that although Jane 1 is attractive and all I can’t marry Jane 1. I don’t recall the reasons I gave her I just know I convince her and the guests at the wedding I should marry Jane 2. The crowd seems stunned and all of the sudden a lynch mob, straight out of ‘Frankenstein’, begins to attack Jane 2 running her out of the church, pitchforks and all. That was the point when I woke up.
I don’t think I have ever remembered a dream so vividly in my entire life. I’m not into the whole “what does your dream mean?” thing, but after that I’m curious. I wonder if there is any strange lessons that should be learned from it (other than to remind my wedding guest to leave pitchforks at home). I just feel there had to be some reason why the dream was so vivid and why I remembered it so vividly. I don’t know what it is. If either of you (yes the two who read my blog) want to try to interpret it please do so. I’m looking for any insight. Its been bothering me for the past couple of days. Anyway…just thought I’d get that out of my system. I don’t understand it and hopefully soon I will. Hopefully I won’t be having any more dreams like that any time soon.